SPM OVER AND RESULTS COMING SOON!

Heyy! Spm results will be out on 3rd march 2015. For now, I start to feel anxious and scared, I dreamt that my results are not so good! However, I wish the best for myself and hope that my SPM results wont turn out so bad, hahaha :)

Im back!

Hihi to everyone that reads my blog (although I know there are no readers out there, it's okay, though, haha). Well, lately I'm just surfing around and started my Google + account, feel free to follow me [Kim 幼金]~ I was actually finding this blog, because I was so inactive for YEARS and I'm now just feeling like updating everything as my mid-year exam just ended.. and it's so enjoying that I found my blog back, haha. Just forgotten the URL because I changed it a few times, not a good move. So.. I hope that you guys out there will like my blog.. and.. anything... have fun :)

It seems like yesterday,

the last day I update my blog..

Without realizing,

 I didn't update my blog for 6 months

Surprisingly..

So many things happened this year,

So many tears I've shed this year

I wished that most of the things happened

can be dominated by happiness..

Within this 7 months of 2012,

finally.. I saw myself,

the disappointing ME ,

in front of the big cruel mirror

Showing how a failure I am

I tried to change

Maybe it is still not enough

Deeply

I feel like giving up

Feel like crying without hiding my tears

Feel like leaning on to someone's back

A person whom is trustworthy..

But maybe my Dream

It's too ambitious, too fantasy..

It would take forever

to make this dream come true..

I will still give myself a chance

Maybe the last chance I could afford

To stop myself from hurting others

and at the same time making scars

in my heart..

It is hard

but I'm willing to lose

to gain a smile..

A sincere smile

that comes from the bottom of the heart..

And for you..

I will take this last chance..

To regain the lost

that shouldn't be losing between us..

But if your door is still sealed..

Then it will be a gameover

for us..

busy..busy..busy~

at last got time to update my bloggie..

going to CNY! happy happy!

but these days really stressful n very tired

and sad =(

almost everyday wan cry.. ><

tdy because too tired din listen to wad teacher said

and do wrong thing..

den tio scold T.T

cried in da class..

lucky no1 realised cuz sit infront.. LOL!

after that comfort ownself.. swt

school is funnnn..

studying isnt fun!

lately catch up back sports..

after so long din exercise n play sport

play awhile oni den hand pain for few days..

since school open almost everyday sure pain

not hand pain back pain

not back pain leg pain

not leg pain neck pain

zzz all aso pain

everyday aso so tired

ytd celebrated CNY

wah control to p.a system

so tiring 

run here run there

lucky got teacher -_-

CNY CNY~~ im here!

angpao! im here!

Oh

Oh im back~

Sch holiday liaoz..

but teachers keep stress on 'direhatkan'..

act, i dun care ==''

lately ply maple.. chiong ah

mech lv82 jor.. stop liaox..

cr8 new char, evan..

but.. slow..

and quite noob..

haiz.. lazy..

10/11

pn.afinas 

belanja bay n me go makan makan pizza

wahaha..

cuz she bet with us to belanja pizza

if we get As in maths.. hehe

thr so many students aso..

saw pn. ng aso.. hehe

=)

11/11
8am went to sch..
hari pendaftaran..
ketua n penolong job is to
giv out risalah.. swts..
so tired jz standing there..
got sit aso..
when folding those papers..
accidently cut my hand.. =(
pain X_X
after dat went to number counter
go call numbers..
frens laugh.. say like bank call number 1..
swt xD
so tired..
damn tired..
ehehe =0
3oclock
went to kfc..
for jamuan pengawas..
although normal..but happy aso..
hehex..
got a 'piala' ketua pemimpin..
n exchg gift..
marker pens? hehe..

off to maple.. bye =)
will upload pix nxt time xD

O.O...

Sis n mum bday.. 20 n 23.. hehes..

bday cake...

 22.10.11

went to see my prince

♥nicholas teo 

♥張棟樑

his new album..

lets not fall in love again..

别再惊动爱情

nice songs..

like...

01.別再驚動愛情 ♥fav

02.不多

03.怎麼會哭 

04.被幸福追著跑 ♥fav

05.天敵 ♥fav

06.鐘擺人

07.寂寞成自然 ♥fav

08.曬乾悲傷 ♥fav

09.世界上最愛你的人 ♥fav

10.給朋友的話 ♥fav 話

this.. i made..

nice bor? :)

his album..

like a book..

like this.. 

special version for m'sia.. =)

cover.. nice... =)

these days keep rain..

nth to do..

these photos are my little garden.. xD

Nice bo?

i loveee snapping pics..

cuz..

i want to snap down 

fun memories

sad memories 

every sec of my life

every things dat happened

and

keep it forever..

remember it till death..

and also..

nicholas aso love snapping pics.. hehes

i ♥ camera...

down here.. kit kats my dad bought.. 

hahas..

u hav 1, i have many ;P

done..

buaix..

stay longer at my blog

listen to nicholas newest songs ba..

especially ..

给朋友的话

very very meaningful 

=) TQ

 ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ 

发生了那么多事，

我终于学会了，

无所谓。

I saw you in the past,

You're my first and last,

But now it's forever pain,

Tears dripping down the drain,

Never appreciated pain,

Down in the heart,

There's some diaries,

Telling some stories,

About two buddies,

That had used to each other,

But had split apart,

No more laughter,

But it's harder,

For each other to be a stranger,

forever.

♥我来了！

♥不，是我回来了～

♥好忙哦。。刚完成我的english drama，

♥本人演lisa, 也就是女主角。。

♥虽然有点忘词，但是也不算忘词。。

♥只是

♥go away, rumpelstiltskin,and leave us alone. dont ever come back 

♥弄成

♥go away, rumpelstiltskin,and dont ever come back. leave us alone..

♥幸好没停着。。

♥还算okay,没有像以前

。。。。。。。。。。

♥最近时常

♥打喷嚏！！！

♥人家说，是有人想念自己，

♥如果真的是，

♥那麻烦那个人，

♥不要再想我了。。

♥很痛苦。。T.T

♥感谢♥！

Time passes just like water..

One second, it's on our hand..

And another, it slide down from our hand..

Too fast..

Sometimes, we thought that time is passing slowly..

and we never thought of to appreciating that time..

and.. we lost it..

Lately din update bloggie..

Bizi? Yea..

For performance.. Hari kemerdekaan.. 

Its tomorrow.. I'll try my best..

Support me~

This week everyday 4am wake up..

To go dataran merdeka..><

Although it's tiring,

but looking at those pelancong..

Their smile is so damn sweet..

They have lots of fun watching our performance..

And i think.. its worth it..

Many things happened behind this performance..

Like..

Tears dripping..

Body aching..

Insomnia..

Not enough sleep..

Scolded by teachers..

Sunburn..

But.. not everything happened behind this performance is bad..

We had fun too..

Like.. 4am at sch..

Never tried before..

And.. finding ghost..

It's fun.. =)

Rmb to support me hor.. 

Watch in tv3, rtm..

Or go live at dataran merdeka..7am! x)

♥ wahaha...

♥hari kemerdekaan..

♥16/9..

♥shiok..

♥training, quite tiring..

♥everyday go sch sure sleepy..

♥sleep in class x)

♥went to stadium putra bukit jalil

♥for performance.. latihan ..

♥sit bus.. 7.00 go sch..

♥but the bus alwiz late.. 

♥there v hot..

♥aircon 1day rm10k..

♥haizz...

♥there very boring..

♥waste time.. haissss...

♥when wan go bak,

♥sure sleep in bus..

♥so comfortable.. hahazx..

♥got 2 bus.. 

♥but today's bus driver quite stupid..

♥haiz.. use long way, made us late.. 

♥next week holiday..

♥after dat need to go dataran merdeka to practise..

♥tiring.. xD

♥I'm back!!

♥after those hard exams,

♥im finally bak..

♥to update my bloggie~~

♥currently, he's the only one,

♥one that can cure my pain..♥

♥ I LOVE HIM !!!! ♥♥dont need to b jealous..

         

♥he's gonna come out with his new album,

别再惊动爱情

with his songs that are already released,

不多

世界上最爱你的人

and on 25th MYFM

主打歌，怎么会哭。

♥waiting.....

♥album out in september..

♥goARA

♥she's my current addiction..

♥she looks like... emmmm who is it....

♥ah!!! yes... 

♥but just some angles..

♥look like.. HIM! 

♥kim jong hyun...

♥do they look alike ?

♥i think so ^^

♥her other 'sexy' pic.. waww ♥

♥here, new idol, almost 1 yr d la..

♥SHINee..

♥i love them.. really x)

♥love their songs like..

juliette

lucifer

 (my all-time-fav)

ring ding dong 

hello

♥try to listen those songs ba.. ^^ 

♥love them, especially him!

♥kim jong hyun!!

♥their members..

from left

onew

lee taemin

kim jonghyun 

(centre)

lee minho

key 

♥ah!! cant less her.. and them!

♥yui yoshioka..

♥love her song,

again

(all-time-fav)

♥how can i forget about 

♥2pm ???

♥love they songs

again & again

i'll be back

heartbeat & fly to seoul boom boom boom!
(all-time-fav)

and more more more!

♥also 2am's

why would'nt you answer my call..

♥end of my story for today.. 

♥just introducing my idols and...

♥lover♥

♥nicholas teo♥

♥SHINee♥

♥yui♥

♥2pm♥

also..

♥della ding♥

♥penny tai♥

♥buaixs♥

♥^^♥

BreaKDowN...

So long din bloggy jor.. so many things happened, no chance to write down.. at last got mood to write liaoz.. 30th july, chinese society performance day.. lolx.. such stupid things happened before that. from 9 members, down to 5 members, then 4 members, and 2 members.. include me 3 members, nice ending.. but on the last week, that 2 members quitted, such coward. and i had to learn a whole new dance, made me left no time to do my revision, ahah. songs that i've danced is ukiss bingeul bingeul, snsd hoot, snsd mr.taxi, wondergirls nobody, shinee ring ding dong, beast/b2st shock, super junior perfection and lastly 2pm i'll be back. wonderful. kinda nervous before going up stage.. almost 7.30am went to sch, wet my hair, cuz dry jor.. do style.. do do do den spray! finish! make up at home 6 am.. kakax.. no breakfast cuz tot teacher will give.. but no... T_T den up stage jor.. this year punya penonton damn damn bored, no offence.. but.. so damn boring ==.. bleh.. disappointed.. kakax.. after performance, see ppl perform.. den when all finish, went to beautiful view eat lunch.. kakax den go bak home.. get 2nd.. normal -.-..

The glass is now broken,

The heart is now leaving,

There is no more 'sincere',

There is no more 'forever',

There is no more 'friendship'.

The promise,

That we made last time,

Is our pain in the future,

Everything has a risk,

I've gave my trust,

I've stood beside you,

I've laugh with you,

I've played with you,

But I've haven't got your trust,

I'm still not important , to you.

You just want others to understand you,

But not understanding others.

You don't want to wake up,

You don't want to accept the truth,

Because it's cruel. 

I've changed, for you.

I've smiled, for you.

But you are not doing anything,

for me.

I really want to end this,

But you're not letting me go.

BiRTHDAY.

After so long, now oni gt chance to on blog. i wanna thanks ppl dat gave me present, more to those who i never give before..

first day~
-home-
thanks to my mum for da video clip! chipmunks~~ hahax..
-sch-
thanks to wendy for da beer moneybottle or wadever its called~
thanks to wei ying for ur homemade stars~~
thanks to ling miin, phuan, wan jie, choo hong n bay fo da duno wad thing.. nice, liked it~~


third day~
thanks to shalin for da frog bag~ like like like!! XD
thanks to suyie for da love keychain~


fourth day~
thanks to bay fo da bubble thing n da holder..

to haters,
maybe u think not many presents i recieve,
but im not celebrity, and this much presents is enuf!
thanks aaa~~ appreciate much ! really~
n aso..
thanks to all da ppl dat wished me XD

Sports day!!
Very scared.. 2nd time oni den bcum commander.. aahhhhh.. my mum help me sew the shirt till 11am++.. after dat go up sleep... roll here.. roll there.. *CANT SLEEP* (scared).. den at last! fell asleep........... -woke up- went to toilet, woke sis up.. see the clock.. 12am oni.. ==llll !!!!! walao... after dat sleep with sis.. roll here roll there.. aaa~~~ at last.. again, fell asleep.. 5.40am sis woke me up~ bathe den get ready.. eat bread... eat eat eat.. aiyak !! stomach ache!!! -_-...
reach stadium jor.. so scare my voice nt loud enuf.. den after wear all the caps, gloves.. teacher told me, open ur glove n caps giv the boy, he will b commander.. i was like.. WTF **** *** ** **!!!! last minute oni wanna change commander ? ****!!! of cuz i din giv.. den she said name changed to his name, so i must give. i still din giv.. after dat i go ask them masuk baris.. he no voice aso wanna command.. its my right to command cuz i teach them from the early stage, the hardest stage ever. if u wanna claim dat u teach them formation, den i can tell u, everybody can do dat. and im better than u cuz i teach 1 formation 30minutes, u teach 1 formation 1 WHOLE DAY, wasted our time.
after they masuk baris, i start to shout, my voice.....T_T like no voice jor.. im like keep *ahem ahem ahem-ing*.. after dat hentak hentak.. wanna reach podium jor.. ass!! gave wrong command.. but at least i stopped in front of the podium, not like others, ;).. nvm, just 1 wrong command.. its okay, im a human, people makes mistakes.. and it's my first time, its already quite good.. many of them did wrong.. aih.. after dat finish done formation, went in baris.. i shouted like hell.. aaa.. my voice.. now my voice is starting to fly away..>< waited there so long.. cramp jor my leg.. == giv speech aso need so long meh???!! roar! after dat.. surai... at last lor.. den see ppl run.. girls satria no bakat meh ? zzz... den skip skip skip.. take bus go bak home.. end of my sports day..

if you wanna blame me on my fault,
try to look at your mistakes first,
its my right to get back what i should,
you cant get things that doesnt belong to you,
what will you feel,
when you thought its yours,
but somebody appears in the last minute,
taking all your things,
throwing your efforts into sea,
and act like its correct..
if you dont want it to happen to you,
dont do it to others,
i gave all i had,
and you gave nothing, nothing.

Leg pain ~ blister.. cuz kawad lurr.. >< dis yr like will lose nia.. ppl nt enuf.. hope dat tmr enuf ppl lor after adding mornin class de.. need to do 2nd formasi aso.. haven do T_T aaaa~~ i scare my voice nt loud enuf when go stadium... kakakx..
last sat went to sch run rrun 1murid bla bla de.. wait dao so long.. keke.. after dat start run jor.. me first batch.. first thr they all run.. im thinking, y must rush ? ltr no energy lor.. den after dat run run run run......... finish jor so tired.. whole body sweat like bathing.. (pls dun mind x) ) den sleep on sis lap.. so nice.. XD
after dat dance poco-poco.. hahas niceeeee... so fun x) den after dat .... chicken dance! hahahas.. kinda regret in front thr.. but after dat, not anymore ~ hehes.. =)

Sometime, I feels lonely..

I tend to understand the pain in others..

Am I a quiet person ?

Yeah.. And this is a thing that nobody knows in me..

Nobody ever knows that..

Nobody knows that I hate to talk.. 

When I talk less, they just assume that I'm emo, moody..

They don't even care to ask..

I never cry infront of others,

I never tell the pain im suffering,

I never show my real feelings,

I never make myself looked lonely..

I kept quiet.. all this years..

Because everytime I wanna say something,

There will be something that will smack my face,

Seems like they don't like me talking.. 

They don't like my smile,

They dont care about my story..

Maybe thats the cause to my quietness..

I thought that I'm happy.. 

But till now, 

i cant find happiness..

I still feel lonely..

I feel jealous,

What i want is somebody to care about me..

You said,

You were the one feeling lonely,

I am the one abandoning you,

And you suffer a lot..

But do you ever care about me ?

Do you ever ask about my life ?

Do you ever ever really tell me your story ?

I cant understand you..

When are you telling the truth ?

When are you telling lies ?

Are you telling lies all the time ?

It's awful to see your friend telling lies to you,

You don't want me to do that to you, right ?

But why do this to me?

We are friends, but do you treat me as your friend?

Do you ever appreciate me ?

Yeah, sometimes I dont wanna talk to you..

Cause i'm fed up.. 

Everytime you leave me alone,

I never say anything,

I just tell myself, its okay..

But my heart bleeds like hell..

Do you ever care ?

You dont care about me, 

I dont wanna care about you either..

I'm tired making friends with you..

I dont care anymore if you wanna sit with others or what,

My pain is enough, 

And in the future, if you wanna do that again,

I dont care.

Today is not a good day in my life~ Thinking about today makes me wanna cry.. >.< Today kawad again.. haish.. finish kawad liao edi tired.. need walk back home somore.. more tired lor.. den need to walk alone somore.. ==lll so scary.. zzz.. den after dat need to hang shirt.. damn damn tired.. wanna cry jor.. T.T den go sch...... need walk again.. arrr.. so damn tired.. den go sch gt indian girl kena stroke or wad la.. blood all over the floor.. fuu.. kinda scary.. after dat gt thing happen den make me moody.. almost cry out :( after dat tell fren den relieve jor.. really works.. x) hehex.. den after dat go class by class do announcement.. walao walk again.. my legs gonna break... =(

Dance, is my everything,
Guitar, is my happiness,
Friends, is my medicine to my pain ;)

Today~ Haih.. Should I say a good day or bad day ? I dont know.. confused =(.. Suddenly felt so tired.. maybe is bcuz kawad ? too tired ? or wad.. is it because her words in sch ? why should i be so calculative.. y should i be so 'small gas'.. >.< maybe some ppl cant stand my attitude.. how can I change it ? im so scared dat if i change myself, i'll be another person that nobody knows anymore.. huu... tmr gt kawad again.. kinda happy.. cuz long time din kawad.. i talked to the morning class teacher, she said she gonna lantik my sis as commander, but my sis say she dun wan kawad.. i wanna quit T_T life's boring without her.. >,<

Another 'poem' from me, based on the things that happened today.. ~_~

No matter how much my effort cost,
It's nothing to you,
You maybe don't care but I do,
Hate me, then leave me,
Don't stand by my side and make me suffer,
Leave me alone and I'll always cure,
Throw away my heart that I gave,
And never ever look back,
Continue your life and I'll continue mine,
Stop lying, if you don't want to.
Do what you want and one day,
I'll say, I dont care anymore. ;)

Be a happy person never emo,
Your smile will make my day,
Live your life and not for other's sake,
Leave your pain and find for sweetness,
Stop giving when it's over,
Don't lie, dont cry,
Be a person that is called,
Yourself.

You're so fake..
Maybe it's me that is so stupid,
Believe a person like you..
Or maybe your acting is superb,
That you can blindfold everybody beside you..
I don't know when is your real smile,
When are you telling the truth,
And when are you lying..
I don't know how to face you..
Facing people like you, are the most tiring job in the world..
You wouldn't know what's next..
And you've just need to guess..
It's tiring..

When you first came, I thought maybe you're the best,
But when I saw your real personality,
Maybe when we all saw your real personality,
I felt so damn annoyed with you..
You're a big big liar..
Your smile, is that true?
I really don't know..
And just God knows..

Why is everything going upside down ?
The person that I thought I knew,
Changed just in a split second,
The person that I put hopes on,
Just disappoint me..
What should I do ?
Somebody please just tell me..
I have no clue what is happening in my life..
Maybe like they said,
I'm just living in the past, alone..