It seems like yesterday,

the last day I update my blog..

Without realizing,

 I didn't update my blog for 6 months

Surprisingly..

So many things happened this year,

So many tears I've shed this year

I wished that most of the things happened

can be dominated by happiness..

Within this 7 months of 2012,

finally.. I saw myself,

the disappointing ME ,

in front of the big cruel mirror

Showing how a failure I am

I tried to change

Maybe it is still not enough

Deeply

I feel like giving up

Feel like crying without hiding my tears

Feel like leaning on to someone's back

A person whom is trustworthy..

But maybe my Dream

It's too ambitious, too fantasy..

It would take forever

to make this dream come true..

I will still give myself a chance

Maybe the last chance I could afford

To stop myself from hurting others

and at the same time making scars

in my heart..

It is hard

but I'm willing to lose

to gain a smile..

A sincere smile

that comes from the bottom of the heart..

And for you..

I will take this last chance..

To regain the lost

that shouldn't be losing between us..

But if your door is still sealed..

Then it will be a gameover

for us..