我的付出,
是没用的.
我的眼泪,
是透明的.
我的孤单,
不算什么.
我的友情,
失败.
我的学业,
失败.
我的生活,
失败.
我真的很失败..
不明白,
我是我,
为什么改变我?

FiGHT! PENGETUA DOiNG WAD?~

Today watched a bunch of people fight and a bunch of people sent to BALAI POLIS! BUT......! MALAY VS INDIAN, I saw only INDIANS MORE than 10 people caught while MALAY only 3? Well.. Maybe the police is NOT CAPABLE to catch MALAY STUDENTS, if that's the case, police can letak jawatan. MEMALUKAN. PENGETUA SMKTSM, I've got only 1 word to describe, MEMALUKAN! Well, I dont know the real full story, so im not gonna make any conclusion.. Almost everybody side indians, and blaming malays.. Because they just saw 3 malays caught while 23 indians caught and pengetua SMKTSM, RACIST KAO KAO~~ bikin malu lor.. famous jor.. xD

Nah.. To those who haven read news.. but i think whole shah alams' penduduk aso read jor hor? x)
http://www.freemalaysiatoday.com/2011/04/20/pergaduhan-kaum-pengetua-lepas-tangan-kata-bapa-pelajar/
But if STAR newspaper post it, sure more gegar 1 this news XD

Afternoon, helped teacher~~ Fotografi! what a fun job~ ponteng whole day xP so fun lo~ xD
Dinner went to pizza hut makan makan in kota kemuning.. wahlao just 1 waiter.. dang! 15 mins to order, 20 mins to wait for food.. slow kao kao~~ pek cek.. cannot go there laa... gave them feedback jor.. the soup aso NO TASTE!! at least put la ajinomoto.. kakakax.. XD

Today~ Bay's bday..
No matter how loud I laugh,
No matter how hard I smile,
There's still a non-stop bleeding blood in my heart,
Could not be explained,
Could not be seen by naked eyes..
Best friend wouldn't bear to see me lonely,
Best friend wouldn't bear to see me cry,
But best friend wouldn't dare to say,
"I wont betray you".. to me..
Sometimes, I asked myself a few questions,
That will have no answers,
I asked myself..
Do I have a real friend?
How long more I can endure the pain?
Will I stop smiling at everybody?
Will I burst into tears infront of others?

Hmm.. today duno y.. feel like wanna hurt myself.. den suddenly take broken glass cut my hand a few times.. bleeding.. >.< but I cant feel the pain.. but no matter what i do, whatever i think, nobody is aware, nobody knows.. maybe ppl think im a brave person.. maybe ppl think im strong, maybe ppl think im fierce.. but actually.. im not.. sometimes i really wanna be friends with everybody.. but i cant.. i cant bare to see myself telling lies, again n again..

Sometimes, people need to know..
I dont on my chat,
I dont reply msgs,
I dont pick up the phone,
I dont smile at you,
I dont reply what you asked,
I dont do what i've done yesterday,
I dont shout like an idiot,
I dont smile as usual,
I dont open my eyes,
Just because..
I'm tired,
I'm not in the mood,
I dont wanna talk,
I dont wanna smile,
I dont wanna answer questions,
I dont wanna repeat stupid actions,
I dont wanna be called idiot,
I dont wanna make a fake smile,
I dont want my tears to drop down..

What you want me to do ?
Follow you like a dog?

Sit there and listen you chatting with your BEST FRIENDS ?

OR cry infront of you ?

Maybe you want me to scold bad words like you ?

Oh, is it chat with you loudly until everybody says I'm mad ?

Why is it you want everybody to understand you,

while you never try to put yourself if my shoes ?

Why is it you said that you're very very suffering,

while Im infront of you and you never realise it,

that I care about you, I need you,

But you never care.. 

Is this world really that cruel ? 

Or the cruelness came only from you ?

Is it you think that I'm strong, 

That I can face these rubbish all by myself ?

You need a friend too, what made you think I that I dont need ?

What made you think I dont need friends to fill up the blank in my diary ?

Your appearance is the only mistake in my life.. 

CURRENT ADDICTION
1. 丁噹 Della

2.王力宏Lee Hom

 3. 下一站，幸福 Autumn's Concerto

AND OF COURSE :

張棟樑NiCHOLAS TEO 

Oh.. Im falling in love with science.. Last time my enemy is science, but now my lover is science, science, science and science.. ♥♥ xP

Recently, a boy, somebody that i dont know.. came to me and invited me to enter his band.. as a bassist.. i wan it~~ but my mum dun like and dun let.. i wanna be a bassist!! Rahhh.. Loveee guitar ♥♥

Maybe I dont understand you,

But this is just between us two,

Why did you find another who,

To tell the stories that happen only to us, 

And made me felt betrayed first,

Dont tell me you never curse,

Because it is a lie,

You just wanna fly up high,

And try the things you never try,

Its okay,

But why leave me alone back there to cry..


Today april fool day ~ Fooled many people.. all so easy to fool, boring ==lll
Saw Nicholas Teo's album in popular just now, i wanna buy cuz got his signature but my mum dun let.. Nvm, wait Nicholas's new album i 100% sure buy.. somore i got his signature now already~ xP day n night stare at it, loving him more n more xD