today.. teachers day ah?? made me felt like crying... almost cried infront of everybody.. dang! everything i planned FAIL.. wth.. almost cried out... la la la la..... wad kind of person am i? living in the past.... why am i living in the past?!! arrr.... failure, again and again ? why should i laugh when i wanna cry, why should i care about others while they dont care about me, and why should i help until i hurt myself.. while i knew that there wouldnt be any benefit to me at all ? why should i be like that ? why cant i be selfish ? why am i like this... when is this gonna end.. my god.. i need you so.. =(
