I really dont know what should I do.. Everything looks so messy.. and I'm now really confused, really really lost.. I really dont know what is happening, i dont know what should i do, what should I think, how should I react, i really dont know.. I just wanna end everything, im really tired of suffering, tired of crying, tired of being lonely.. i thought that i could be myself, but i cant.. last time i can show the fake smile, but now... its really hard for me to show the stupid fake smile again.. when i dont wanna smile, everybody is such an idiot asking me to smile.. but one thing that nobody knows..DO YOU ALL KNOW, I REALLY HATE TO SMILE ?! really, i hate to smile from small.. i so damn hate to smile.. im just a weirdo.. i love blood, i hate to smile, i hate to make friends, i hate to talk.. i love to be quiet.. do u all ever know these ? nobody knows, and people claim that they understand me, they said that they really really know the real me..
Last time, i wanna make more friends, but now i know.. friends are NOT IMPORTANT FOR ME, because friends hurt me, friends betray me, friends hates me, friends talk bad behind me, friends gossips without me, friends back-stab me.. i really cant trust any friend, anymore.. but if you think that im wrong, prove it..but for me, friends are betrayer..
