又来到这里诉苦了~
最近真的很累, 脚痛, 手痛..
一直都在逼自己忘掉让自己伤心的事..
但是始终都忘不掉..
好伤心哦~~~~~
哭.. 并不是一种解决方法..
但是,最少可以减少心中的痛苦..
你们的出现真的让我感觉被全世界隔离..
你们的出现让我觉得很孤单, 很伤心, 很痛苦..
你们的出现让我一直继续伪装, 一直对自己说 '没关系'..
但是我不是真的 '没关系'..
我想你们都错了.. 
我不是什么都可以无所谓,什么都可以没关系!
你们根本不理会我的感受.. 
就像一次又一次地被刀插入心中..
很痛.. 很痛..
你们可以了解到我的感受吗? 
你们只在乎自己的感受, 你们是自私的人..
我在你们面前, 很痛苦, 你们却可以很恨的当做 '没看到'..
伤到我的心, 你们知道吗?
啊! 忘了.. 你们是无情无义的人..
留我一个人伤心地走.. 每天就一个人走.. 
不想面对任何人,看到别人在开心地笑, 我的心真的很羡慕..
为什么他们有的幸福, 我没有?
难道我没有这个福气享受友情, 享受快乐吗?
为什么你那么残忍, 你说你很在乎我..
但现在却跟别人做很好很好的朋友..
我很伤心, 你这样对我..
也许.. 这一切都是因为我而起..
也许.. 我装得太烂, 大家都不相信我吧..
算了.. 看来, 我真的是 注定 一辈子孤单了.. x)

痛苦~

我真的努力了..
为什么你就是要那样折磨我?
为什么你就是不能接受,
我不完美, 我不是天才..
你给我的压力很大..
为什么就是不让我有呼吸的空间,
为什么就是不让我休息..
我很累了.. 我真的很痛苦..


想跟别人分享我的故事, 却没有人肯听..
想跟别人诉苦, 但没人想听..
想哭, 却怕被人发现..
只能在晚上关了灯, 偷偷地哭..
只能在黑暗中偷偷哭..
眼泪不停地流.. 无法停止..
好痛苦的一年..
我很害怕..
我很痛苦..
我很伤心..
但.. 这些只能留在我心中,
让它慢慢地消失..
这一年.. 很孤单..
这一年.. 是我哭最多的一年..
想找回我自己..
但已经被你们给我的痛苦, 给我的压力
深深地埋着在我心中..
永远都无法找回了..

Changes..

Facebook became overpopulated and lag like hell.. Kinda boring, so pop out an idea to update my bloggie..
Exam , i did well.. I think can get good results =)
Recently practising my guitar new songs, hope can play for you ♥ =) Saturday went to sunway to meet Nicholas, promote besta.. wakakaka.. suddenly wanna enter his fan club.. yea gonna enter!!!! XD ♥♥♥♥♥
Yesterday cousin came to my house, today went to bukit tinggi.. hahax i skipped my tuition and hav dinner with them.. wah jialat oh my cousin sis pour hot tea, duno hw i hold the glass, den tea spill.. hot water tio my legs.. kakax luckily wear long pants n cargo type.. after dat chat with cousin lil sis abt k-pop all sorts of celebrities.. hehe.. den after dat wanna take food, hand bang the glass, tea spill again.. dang!!! kakax.. lucky din tio me again xP..
after finish eating almost 11pm ba.. actually my ee wanna go gai gai, so we go dataran merdeka.. but after dat chg to kk park there.. nobody xD waahahahaha.. me n my cousin n my sis played and run here run there ( only me run ) kakax.. we also dance there.. nobody wad, hu cares!!! ♥ but there gt ppl play bkb.. kaka.. have really much fun.. den we go play swing awhile.. after dat mum dad call us eat kfc in the park~~~ wahahah.. xD so fun.. after dat 12.30am go bak home jor.. den my sis, my cousin lil sis n i tot of playing poker card.. chor dai dee oh... but after dat my cousin bros' called us to tell ghost stories.. hahax my cousin 2 bro n my lil sis n my real sis sat in my bro's room..we off the light, sit on the bed on the floor, while my bro sleeping on the bed.. xD we talk about ghost stories.. waaa scary oh dark dark de.. but really very fun ♥♥ i love them!!! talk about ghost stories, safety, sports, PLKN, fights in the dark.. and more stories, of course.. hahax..
really enjoy every second with them.. 
they made me feel what is happiness.. 
they teach me how to sacrifice.. 
they teach me how to really really laugh..
den almost 5~6 am we haven sleep lor... talk until 5am 6am.. den boring jor play chor dai dee again.. competition, i won lolx.. always i get num1 among them..kakaka.. they said wanna go ply bkb 6 am den 8am go bukit tinggi.. but at last all go tidur din go ply bkb.. kaka.. days with them is really precious, nobody can replace their place in my heart ♥ 
wan go sleep nw lur.. they all aso go jor.. =( sad.. sleep lur.. nites ♥♥